Thursday, October 18, 2007

05. "Tuo-fu" (not food, ok?)

"Tuo-fu"(托福), in Chinese, refers to the TOEFL test. And yes, the devil
has caught me.(Help!)

Lately, I've been so overwhelmed preparing for the TOEFL test which I
enrolled two weeks ago. It's kind of mad when one come think about
how obsessed I am with this test. Not that it is so difficult or
anything (it sure isn't easy) but how much I ANTICIPATE myself to
achieve. It's just mad.

I can easily drive myself crazy even just I made a little bit of
mistake, especially during the Speaking Test part. Come on! People!
Stop saying "It's easy! For some one's level like you." First of all,
thank you for saying that. But the truth is I also get pressure from
myself (which is the biggest BTW). It feel like I'm trapped in a cave
looking for a way out but not sure if there are any that exist. I made
a big mistake by holding myself high so that when I drop, it damn
hurts!

Tomorrow afternoon is the test, I hope, I know I'm gonna make it
alright (after all those practice) but I definitely can't get careless
or the price may be expensive (ca. $150USD). Okay, it's silly to think
about failing so just do my best and we'll see.

Wish me luck and fingers crossed!

JT

我要考托福了!(終於...)但是只有二個星期的準備時間,實在是不怎麼充裕。然後,今天下午還被人家說教,情緒已經從黃燈轉到【特別注意】的紅燈了!

有事沒事報什麼托福麻!其實最先只是單純想要督促自己不要浪費在美國停留的時間罷,漸漸變成想要在這裡留學的動力而準備。但是說穿了,也是我想一探究竟我自己到底能考幾分。(那又怎麼樣?)

我一直覺得(別人也告訴我過)其實我給我自己的壓力有點過頭,造成反效果,影響了我自己的情緒控制。真的是太在意了嗎?還是說真的是欠缺周祥的考慮?想想之後,覺得應該是資訊太匱乏了。

雖然我每天都一直跟著紐約的脈動,但是對於自己當下所真正需要的卻全然不知。研究所打算要念哪?要準備什麼?報名截止日期什麼時候?...挖蝦米攏恩栽!!(笨!)反而還寫了一個四不像的不落格...要專心!要專心!

明天就是考試的日子了耶!我在帝國大廈對面的大樓應試,我想只要盡全力,小心再小心,隨時注意作答時間以免來不及,降子應該就可以了。好!就這麼辦!

我看還是練習一下口說測驗吧,多累積一點經驗。(趁室友們去看【色.戒】不在家)

下回回報分數了! 晚安!

JT

4 comments:

joyce said...

you're going to be FINE on that test! why are you even worried?!

anyway, i'll be checking on your ny blog regularly, so keep blogging! :)

i miss ny, will try to make my way out to visit. :)

JT said...

Well, that's SOOOOOO comforting after hearing you say that :) Thanks, girl! Yeah, I don't get it myself even why I am worried about it... :P

P.S. Are you coming to the Halloween Parade??

El Ray said...

Jerry Tai!
unbelievable! i wanna know eeeeverything you´re up to jaja! i got your MASS mail and just checked out your blog. you guys know, he´s responsible for sending me to bangkok jajaja! thanks again man! so tell me about new york and your trip, keep in touch,

El Ray.

JT said...

Servus el ray!

I missed you in Graz! I was there you know! Plus, I should have gone to Thailand with you. We could have had partied all night long in Bangkok... so ein mist! :)